Worn And Weary.

So it's been a while. I am exhausted. I'm waiting to meet someone at Indro train station in half an hour, got here a bit too early. So that should be enough time to get a bit of writing done.

I'm feeling a bit burnt out right now and I'm not doing myself any favors by going out. I've tried to take the last few days off, but all I've managed is to go out each of those days and it's not exactly helped the situation. I'm locking myself at home tomorrow and cutting off nearly all contact just to have one day where I don't have to do anything.

Whine, whine... Ha ha, it's not that bad. I just have achy legs and my brain feels a little worn out. And a really quick temper which isn't like me. Not that I've snapped at anyone just yet, good self control and the realization that it's all in my head.

So why so busy? Well I started a new job last week as an attendant at a petrol station. It's not the ideal job for me, but it'll do until I can get something in admin in a few months. I fucking hate high pressure jobs, it's bloody petrol and snacks, nothing is worth the stress those guys put on each other and in turn put on me.

I'm not saying I don't want to work hard, I have been doing just that. But the way these sort of places talk about customer service it's as if the Queen of England was coming in to buy a mars bar. I just don't give that much of a shit.

I also don't really like the way this job came about. I pretty much got forced into taking it. Had a meeting with my job service rep and he said he ha this job and I said that I'd rather wait for an admin job to come around and that I wasn't desperate. Cut to a few days later and he's saying he has to report me for turning down a job and I'll have my payments cut off. So off to the interview I go.

It's not that bad, the job is okay. It's just I want to make sure I get the right paid job for me, something that doesn't cause me a lot of stress do I can focus on life and Amnesty stuff. This is not that job, though who knows maybe it will be after I get used to it.

The boss seems like a nice enough guy and he understands how important my volunteer work is. So maybe it might end up being perfect. But for now I have to get used to doing that about 20 hours a week as well as everything else that's going on. Also it involves getting up at 4am...Urgh.

ARTillery is going well. We had our budget approved, we've paid for the venue. We've got five bands for the opening night and potentially 22 artists altogether. Our printing materials are done and we're just about to order our badge maker. There are a few annoyances, for one some aspects are going really slowly and it can feel like an eternity before hearing back from some people.

There's pretty much a month to go and I'd say we've pretty much done the majority of the organizing for now. It's all about the promotions and marketing from now on and making sure all the artists end up providing us something to exhibit. Not too worried there.

It's actually a good thing that things are a bit more chilled in that regard. I'm just not used to leaving the house at 5am some mornings and getting home around 10pm most nights. I've spent the last four years predominately at home and this is wearing me out.

But by the time the year ends I reckon I'll have a better grasp of everything. I've been given a lot of responsibility in such a short time and have had to really up my game, so it's no wonder. Anyways I'm off to cook some burritos and try and have a nice evening among friends. Things are looking up. :)

Andy Scott