The End

Welcome to the very last entry for this journal! I've been mulling it over the last week or so and decided this was the right way to go. I've felt less and less like coming here and writing about the events of my life, it just hasn't seemed necessary. In the past it was a valuable tool helping me make sense of the chaos, something that doesn't seem to be part of my life anymore. I'm not saying my life is perfect right now or that I won't ever make changes to my goals and plans, but I am at the stage where I can make sense of all my moods. I can easily tell when I'm being overwhelmed or anxious about something and I know the right steps to take at that point. In effect, I am now normal and healthy...well about as normal and healthy as I ever could be.

Here's my current situation. I'm continuing my work at Amnesty International, I'll be heading up the arts activism group which will be a continuation of the ARTillery Festival I helped run at the end of last year. I'll be recruiting volunteers to help use the arts to raise awareness about human rights issues. Currently I am the only member of this group, unless Carmen decides she wants to be involved. But once I've advertised it among the Amnesty channels it should be pretty easy to get more volunteers. We're starting off by attending two concerts in February, with Flannelette playing The Hi-Fi Bar on the 11th and ARTillery Festival headliners The Secret Whisper playing The Zoo on the 24th. Will be attempting to do one or two of these sort of events per month with local Brisbane bands and perhaps even international acts too.

Obviously this won't be the only thing we'll be doing through the group, I just don't want to go into full detail right now. I've signed on for three courses at UQ and will be continuing my Bachelor of Arts in Political Science. Everyone says that university is a lot easier when you have an idea about what you want to achieve by the end of it. Well I guess I'll find out as I now have a very clear idea of what I want to do in my life. I've become a member of the Amnesty UQ group and will be meeting with them next week some time. I'll be helping out with the O-Week stall trying to get more volunteers to the group. I'm supposedly also going to be sent over to other universities to try and encourage people to start new Amnesty groups on campus. That'll be interesting.

Oh and I'll still be working at the petrol station. I know it sounds like a lot, but I think I'm ready for it. I proved last year that I could handle working casually as well as the very time consuming work that I was doing at Amnesty. I'm going to be pretty busy, but I really believe I can handle it. I am keeping a close eye on things and the moment I feel like I'm taking too much on I take a step back. I'll be off my meds in about two months from now. Just waiting until my current prescription card runs out and I'm done.

Well that pretty much sums things up. It's been a grea...it's been a journey these past 8 years that I've kept this site going, so that means the entire period of my twenties thus far. Wow, I'm really tempted to go back to start and have a read through. Not right now though. I'll leave this post up for a week and then I'll replace it with a single post explaining what this journal was about and a link to the beginning. I just want to say thank you to anyone that has kept up with this journal over the years and if you've just finished reading through it you're a fucking trooper, ha ha. That's it for me, I might start other writing projects in the future and have them on this site. But for now I'm going to start living without that nagging feeling at the back of my head that I need to write for the first time in nearly a decade. FREEEEEEEDDDDDOOOOOOMMM!!!!

Andy Scott